The Storms identity crisis.

The Storms identity crisis.

How The Buffalo help me navigate the difficultness of helping his Storm of a wife struggle with an identity she was never able to find as a child because of her abusive childhood.

The question I constantly ask myself almost daily, even still at my age.

Who Am I? What do I even like?

My Husband The Buffalo married a woman who truly had no idea who she was, what she wanted, what she liked or disliked I just wanted everyone around me to tell me what I wanted or needed, and all I knew was my options were what you wanted plain and simple. That how it was that how I was raised You don't get an opinion and you don't have your own needs.

The Buffalo is a man of compassion and understanding that is for sure. He knew what it was like for me to be hurt and rejected. He also knew the importance of helping me find one's own identity and figure all that out is important to live a healthy life. I often wonder, if Jesus had a wife who had been through an abusive childhood and was so damaged beyond her own repair, I think he would first listen to her story. He would let her know that he understood her pain and that he was there for her. He would also remind her that she was not alone. Jesus would then help his wife to see her worth. He would tell her that she was created in His image and that she was loved by God. He would also remind her of all the good things about her inside and out.

The journey to find my identity after an abusive childhood has not been easy. Wounds I thought had healed resurface, and sometimes the pain is so intense it feels like physical suffering. But with Jesus by my side, I know I can't make sense of it all and why my parents are this way, but he helps to refocus and calms the stress of it all inside me. Jesus helps me heal the past and understand my worth again. Still, there are times when without the comfort of my husband's embrace and his reassuring words, I would be too overwhelmed to carry on. He encourages me to uncover who God created me to be and never stops cheering me on. When darkness takes over, reading the bible stills those turbulent emotions inside of me - the ones that were never given a chance to exist in my childhood. When hope seems lost, here are some Bible verses that I think Jesus might use to encourage his wife, I found these helpful and still do:

• Psalm 139:14 "I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well."

• Isaiah 43:1-2 "But now thus says the Lord, he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you."

• Romans 8:28 "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose."

I hope this blog post has been helpful. If you are struggling to find your own identity after an abusive childhood, I encourage you to turn to Jesus Christ, the Lamb of God. He will give you peace and comfort while you take one step at a time in healing your wounds. You can also turn to friends or family members and ask them for support as well.

If you were raised in a home where God was not worshiped, where the Bible was not read, and love for others was never taught, then I encourage you to look into Christ and ask him to help you do on-the-spot miracles in your everyday life. Jesus can help you heal from your past and find your definition of worthiness. His redemption can free your mind from the lies that have made you think something is wrong with you, so that you can finally discover your purpose as a daughter of God.

The Storm - Lee